Self-confidence
Where does it come from? Why do some people possess more than others? What can I do to “catch” more of it?
The quest to get pregnant has brought up a ton of insecurities. Am I healthy enough to carry a child? Will I be a good mom? Will I be able to give my child everything he or she needs?
Will I gain too much weight while pregnant? Am I eating the right food? What else can I do to ensure that we get pregnant soon? Is this the best my body will look (and it isn’t looking too fit right now)? Will Husband find me attractive after giving birth? Will I be the wife and mother he deserves?
But a new fear has entered my mind. Will my child inherit my low self-esteem? I am fairly certain I inherited it from my mom.
The rational side of me realizes that I shouldn’t feel this way. I have accomplished specific goals in my life – college, grad school, 5K, half-marathon, National Boards, etc. But those accomplishments can’t seem to find their way to my mind with all these concerns and negative feelings.
So… Where does self-confidence come from? Why do some people possess more than others? What can I do to “catch” more of it?
I know when I’m feeling less than stellar, I rely heavily on how I appear on the outside. As vain as it sounds, when I look good, my confidence soars. If I know I appear to have it together, then I must have it together, right? Fake it till you make it baby!