Success and Hard-work
I am the daughter of a farmer. We still live on a farm. Farmers are hard-working people! When we had the dairy farm my dad had to milk the cows twice a day – rain, snow, birthday, holiday, etc.
Growing up I was taught that if you work hard, you will be successful. That attitude and work ethic has served me well. I studied for tests in college and prepared then I did well on tests and received good grades. I prepared for a half-marathon through planned runs so I was ready for the race and was able to complete it. I teach each day to the best of my ability so my students will learn and be ready for the next grade.
This attitude has served me well UNTIL now! You can’t work hard and make yourself pregnant. You can’t make your ovaries produce eggs no matter how hard you work or want it. The first round (50 mg) of Clomid has not been strong enough. I have been taking ovulation tests daily. Monday-Wednesday my results were building and where to be expected but since then my body has produced less and less of the hormone that sprurs ovulation. Almost daily I have called and talked to the Infertility specialist about the results of the tests. She said that I would likely need 100 mg of Clomid (or more) in order to ovulate.
I’m disappointed. I WANTED us to get pregnant quickly. I knew the chances wouldn’t be great (20%) but I thought it was possible! Now there is a 0% chance of pregnancy. I’m sad but am trying to relax and refocus.
Maybe June will be our month!
I hope June IS your month! You should drink a glass of wine and give yourself a pat on the back for being so amazing!
It will happen soon! I know it’s frustrating to not be in control though.
I didn’t know your dad was a dairy farmer- mine was too! And both my grandpas. We got out of dairy about 6 years ago though but my dad still raises heifers and has crops.
Im so sorry to hear about your struggles. I do not have the same issues that you have to contend with, but I know where you are coming from. I wanted a baby really bad, and it just didn’t seem like it was in the cards for us. My reproduction organs worked like they were suppose to and so did my husbands, but we just couldn’t get pregnant. I just found out that I am pregnant . . . 1 year later! I wanted you to know that it’s going to be hard and frustrating both emotionally and physically, but in the end it will be worth it. I will pray for you and your family. Just know that God has plans for you that you may not understand yet, and He will give you this gift when he knows that timing will be perfect for you. Our time frames don’t always match up with his. I wish you the best!