I’ve Been Busy
In the last 3+ weeks I have been busy.
I have…
felt depressed that I can’t will my pregnancy plan into action. No February babies for me!
fallen back into bad habits of diet soda and sweets.
worked towards shutting down the school year. The end of the year is 10X more difficult than any other point in the year. If you know a teacher, hug him or her. The end of the year is not easy!
noticed every time pregnancy or babies are mentioned on TV, Facebook or in conversation. Babies are still on this brain!
GO AWAY!
taken a pregnancy test after getting blood results conclude that I did in fact ovulate. Why didn’t someone rely that to the ovulation stick I was peeing on for 5+ days? FYI: the pregnancy test was negative.
done yard work and felt glad to be fit enough to tear down a tree and clean up the mess.
joined a local, small gym and worked with a trainer. We are working together to get my arms rocking. I lift weights 3 times a week and actually LOVE it. I feel like an athlete when I use the cable machine and the big dumb bells. No girly pink or plastic dumb bells for me right now. I am also loving running stairs as part of my workout.
had my first period without help from birth control since I was 18. Success! Clomid was needed but not another drug to force me to menstruate.
bought a new refrigerator! It is big and nice and will fit in well in our kitchen. Starting Friday evening this lady will be enjoying the finer things in life… crushed ice.
started my second cycle with Clomid. Next week I will have a mid-cycle ultrasound to check my ovaries and uterus since I didn’t have success with home ovulation tests last month. Nonetheless, they want me to continue home ovulation tests starting Monday. I am now a pro at peeing on a stick, while being half-asleep.
openly wished I could run (was ready and fit enough mind, body and spirit) another half-marathon with Husband. On Saturday morning he is running a TOUGH, hilly half-marathon. I will be there to cheer him on. I didn’t train for the half because I was hopeful there would be a bun in the oven.
Haunted Half - October 30, 2010
regained focused and clarity about what I want. I have returned to more healthful eating. That cake and those chips don’t fulfill me or give me what I want. I don’t yearn for their taste, fat, or calories. I YEARN to have a baby and be a mommy. I YEARN to see my husband become a daddy. I YEARN to see what the future holds.
You HAVE been busy! Don’t be so hard on yourself. (It’s hard to let go of that Diet Coke habit in these last busy weeks of school!) You are healthier and have thought more about your future children’s health than probably 99% of the people who become moms. Literally.
Busy bee indeed! It sounds like you’re occupying yourself with some things you enjoy, which is good. Keep up the things you enjoy and make sure you smile in the mirror at least once a day!
If I could hug you right now, I would. One day I will feel the end of the year teacher stress with you. Keep yourself positive. You are only human! Remember that!
Thinking about you. I KNOW what its like going through TTC on Clomid! One day at a time!
You’ve been so busy! The end of the school year is so hard…. on parents, too. Add that to being a school nurse and trying to get all the meds and inhalers and epi-pens back… we’re all just exhausted! Oh, girl, what great news about having a cycle. I know your pain in your plan not going according to, well, plan. It’s so hard getting through it all. And having pregnancy all around you….. doubly hard. I’ll keep you in my prayers, friend.